In My Heart 13

“Alot changed when the two of you separated Maya. Di mo lang alam but after you left, Richard changed. And it was because of you na nagkaayos kami ng anak ko.”

Maya raised an eyebrow. Confused on what the old man infront of her is saying. She can clearly remember everything that happened after they separated pero sigurado siyang wala siyang ginawa for both of them. Roberto saw the confusion in Maya’s face, he could only smile at the lovely woman sitting opposite to him. Resting his elbows over the tabletop he started to tell her what happened six years ago.

“Naalala mo naman siguro yung last time na nagkita tayo right? You would know di kami magkasundo ng anak ko. It started when he was still young. Maliit pa si Richard nung na-diagnose si Esmeralda, his mom, ng breast cancer at nasa third stage na. That time di pa ganun ka establish ang business namin, LAS was just starting so kinailangan kong magtrabaho  ng magtrabaho. Not just para maging successful yung business but mainly because kailangan namin ng pera sa support his mom’s needs, and of course sa pag-aaral ni Richard. That time wala pa kaming pera gaya ngayon.Most of the time, yung mother-in-law ko lang and a few of Esmeralda’s siblings yung nakakasama ng mag-ina ko specially kapag naco-confine si Esmeralda. I have to earn money to support my family kaya lagi akong wala. Nakita ni Richard ang struggles ng mama niya especially during the chemotherapy, ilang ulit siyang nakiusap sa akin na huwag na daw naming ipa-chemo yung mama niya kasi naaawa na siya everytime nakikita niyang nanghihina ang mama niya after the therapy, but of course di ako pumayag kasi isa yun sa maaring magpapagaling sa kanya. He also ask me to spend time with his mother but of course hindi pwede. Di pa naiintindihan yon ni Richard. Ang naiisip lang niya is kung paano niya mapapagaan ang nararamdaman ng mama niya everytime dumadaing sa sakit ito. To make the story short, ilang buwan ding naghirap si Esmeralda bago ito namatay. Worst wala pa ako sa tabi niya at nasa isang meeting that time. Since then, di na ulit kami nagkaroon ni Richard ng pagkakataon na mag-usap. He always avoids me whenever he see me coming. Lumaki man si Richard at naintindihanang reason  kung bakit di ko siya napagbigyan noon sa hiling niya noon I guess di na kayang i-save pa yung relationship namin at di na kayang iwaglit ang galit niya sa akin na ilang taon din niyang kinikimkim sa puso niya. While growing up, ang tumatak na sa isip niya ay pinabayaan ko ang mama niya at wala akong pakialam sa kanila.”

Maya’s heart bleed after hearing the story. Di niya lubos maisip how miserable Richard was. Growing up alone having all the bad memories about his sick mother is heartbreaking. Kung sa kanya nangyari yon di niya kakayanin. Maliit pa siya ng iniwan siya ng tatay niya, di man ito namatay kagaya ng sa mother ni Richard pero pareho lang din ang sakit na dulot nito. Pero buti na lang at andiyan pa ang nanay niya at ang lola niya, but with Richard’s case, it different. Mag-isa lang siya habang lumalaki, walang ibang kasama para sabihan ng kung ano ang nararamdaman niya.

“When you left, Richard began to realize na nagsisimula ka na pala niyang magustuhan. While growing up, he told me he promised himself di siya gagaya sa akin. He would never leave his wife and kids. But you left. Naisip niyang wala siyang pinagkaiba sa akin. He told me that, nung nagpaalam siya sa akin na aalis at pupuntang America. Alam mo ba kung gaano kasakit malaman na yon pala ang iniisip ng anak mo sa’yo? When all you wanted that time is to save the woman you love and pray na di mawalan ng nanay ang anak mo.  Because of what he said to me, saka lang kami nabigyan ng pagkakataong mag-usap ulit. Kung ano man ang mga sakit na nararamdaman namin sa isa’t-isa dun sa oras na yon, saka pa namin napag-usapan. We patched things up. I told him it’s not yet late to start all over again, just like the two of you. I told him ikaw lang yung babaeng nakita kong para sa kanya. When he said kailangan muna niyang lumayo then I let him.  You both need time to grow. I said, when the right time come, go home and go get Maya back and start rebuilding the family he wants. Pareho pa kayong immature that time, kung pinilit ninong magsama baka at the end maghihiwalay talaga kayo ng tuluyan. You are still in the process of reaching your dreams, he is still starting..I was hoping that when he decides to come back di pa huli sa inyong dalawa ang lahat.  He left you with good intentions Maya. He maybe physically away but I know in his heart and mind ikaw lang lagi ang laman dun.”

Di alam ni Maya kung kailan siya nagsimulang umiyak pero naramdaman niyang sobrang basa na pala ng luha niya ang tissue na nasa kamay niya. Kung di lang hinawakan ni Roberto ang kamay niya, di rin niya alam na nanginginig na pala siya.

“Maya sana mag-usap kayo ng maayos ni Richard. Noong una kayong nagtagpo pareho pa kayong immature at di kilala ang isa’t-isa. Now, give yourselves time para kilalanin ang isa’t-isa. Sana di mo iniisip ang tungkol sa annulment now that Richard is back. That would be so hard for him. He only have a dream of living a happy life with you Maya, I wish you know that.”

Di alam ni Maya kung paano niya sasagutin si Roberto when the sole purpose of letting Richard enter her life again is to get the freedom from their marriage. She is wiping the fresh tears from her eyes again when Richard showed up.

“Are you crying?”

Richard ask Maya as he claim his seat beside her once again. With a worried look he glance at his father and Maya alternately.

“May na-miss ba akong ma-dramang usapan dito?”

Di magawang magsalita ni Maya. Afraid that she might break down again.

“Nothing son..kinwento ko lang kay Maya yung tungkol sa mama mo.”

“Oh.. Maya, stop crying. Baka akalain ng mga tao dito ikaw pinagbabayad namin ng kinain natin dito. Tsaka yung ilong mo, namumula na. Para ka ng si Rodulph the Red Nosed Raindeer, malayo pa ang pasko advance na advance ka masyado.”

Richard tease her as he tuck the strands of hair  behind her ear. He then offer his handkerchief to Maya which she gladly took. After Richard showed up, di na muling binalikan ni Maya at Roberto ang usapan nila bago pa nagpakita ulit si Richard. The rest of the dinner were spent with happy chit-chats. They stayed at the restaurant for a couple more hours bago sila naghiwalay. Roberto thanked Richard and Maya for giving him the opportunity na makasama sila that night. He wished further na sana di ito ang huli as he whispered to Maya. She could only smile at the old man and secretly thank him in her thoughts for the stories that he shared. Minutes later, Maya and Richard are heading home.

 

 

The next day, over breakfast . Maya silently watch Richard who is busy with his phone. She heard him giving instructions to Liza over the phone while he pour coffee on her cup and his . Still talking over the phone,  he would pass the tray of bread to Maya, refill her empty coffee cup, or offer jam every time she pick a piece of bread. He must have talk to Liza for nearly half an hour before ending the call.

“By the way, anong oras ka uuwi mamaya?”

Maya shrugged while she drinks her coffee.

“Baka late na ako uuwi mamaya. Busy kami sa office, meron kami client presentaion coming up plus preparing with the Bermudez account’s final presentation.”

“Okay..baka late na din ako maka-uwi. I have to talk to James.”

Maya is trying to see his reaction and she saw him stop for a few moment as he sip on his cup.

“May .. date kayo?”

“I guess so..”

Confrontation most likely.

“Okay. Huwag ka lang masyado magpa-gabi, kahit malapit lang kayo dito sa area. Mag-aalala parin ako.”

Gusto ni Maya na sabihin yon ni Richard na nakatitig ito sa mata niya pero hindi nangyari. He kept his eyes on his cup kahit binaba na niya ito sa saucer sa harap niya. Di alam ni Maya kung ganito ba palagi ang ginagawa ni Richard tuwing sinasadya niyang banggitin ang pangalan ni James sa harap niya kasi di naman niya tinititigan si Richard tuwing magkaharap sila. Now, she can clearly see the hurt  in his faceAnd she doesn’t like to see that expression in him, kasi nasasaktan din siya. She wanted to ignore this new feeling inside her but she just can’t help it.

“Di ka ba kakain?”

Maya asked when she notice him drinking only his coffee and not taking even a single bite of his bread.

“Hindi na, sa office na lang…tapos ka na?”

“Yes..toothbrush muna ako. Then alis na tayo.”

“Okay. Ako na bahala dito.”

Minutes later, Maya stepped out of their room ready then they head out.

 

Nang masiguro ni Maya na umalis na si Richard, tumawag siya ng taxi at sumakay. Kailangan niyang gawin to for her peace of mind. Kung ano man ang kahihinatnan ng pag-uusap na ito, handa na siyang makinig at tanggapin. Di niya pwedeng pakinggan lang ang kung ano ang nasa isip at sa puso niya kasi magkasalungat ang sinasabi ng dalawa. Kailangan niyang gawin to, bago niya gawin ang dapat noon pa niya ginawa.

“Sigurado ka ba sa  gagawin mo Maya?”

“Opo, Nay.”

“Maya di na ba magbabago ang desisyon mo?”

“Mamang, sigurado na po ako.”

Mamang and Nanay Teresita hug Maya tightly.

“Sana maging masaya ka Maya sa desisyon mong yan. Wala kaming ibang hinahangad sa’yo kundi maging masaya ka lang.”

 

Finally, nagkita din sina Maya at James. They agreed to talk things over that night. They went to their special place where they usually go whenever there is something that they want to talk. It’s an elevated place situated just outside the city, tahimik at maganda ang view. They discovered the place when they went for a roadtrip together noong kakasimula pa lang nila. As soon as they arrive, James parked his car under the tree then they both went out of the car. Habang nakatayo at nakatingin sa magandang tanawin sa baba ng burol, James wrap his arm around Maya habang nakatayo ito sa likuran niya.

“James sorry kung nagulat kita noong isang araw. Alam ko nagtatampo ka pa hanggang ngayon.”

“Maya, tell me kung bakit mo yun ginawa.”

“Honestly? Kasi yun naman ang totoo di ba? Di ko pwedeng ipagkaila yon kasi ayoko maapektuhan ang image ng company mo. Mas madaling sabihin yon kasi totoo kesa magkaila ako at mas lalong dadami ang tanong pagnalaman nilang boyfriend kita at kasal pa din ako kay Richard. At least kung alam niyang asawa ko si Richard di na niya iisipin boyfriend kita.”

“Yun lang ba yon? ”

“Oo.”

“Maya tell me honestly. May aasahan pa ba ako sa’yo? Sabi mo noon sa akin, pumayag kang magsama kayo ulit kasi di papayag si Richard na pumirma sa annulment ninyo na di mo siya binibigyan ng pagkakataon pagkatapos makikipaghiwalay ka na. Tell me, ngayon ba ganun pa din ang gusto mo?”

James shifted Maya, pinaharap niya ito sa kanya habang hawak-hawak ang balikat nito. Looking at Maya, straight in her eyes.

 

 

21 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. chobangs
    Sep 19, 2013 @ 16:51:25

    bypassed chap 12… parang di kaya…😦

    so based on this chapter, sana nga magkaayos na sila. Masakit na masyado para kay Richard. (at sa akin)

    Sana she’ll give their marriage another chance…
    😦

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  2. mschuchy
    Sep 19, 2013 @ 09:57:33

    nagkakaliwanag na ang realasyon nina maya at richard ah, mag-asawa sila, at dapat sila ang nagkaka-ayos, hindi sina maya at james

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  3. misschuchy
    Sep 19, 2013 @ 09:55:08

    Reblogged this on redroses22.

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  4. eden delacruz
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 23:12:11

    i think she will chose Richard… kasi affected cya dito eh even before nalaman niya ang kuwento mula sa papa niya….kawawa nman si James pag nakataon eh.

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  5. rocsan888
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 22:27:20

    Wala naman akong matandaan na nagustuhan na ni maya si richard during the time na magkasama sila. Kiniss nga si richard nung lasing sya.. Hindi pa sila nun mag asawa. Para mas fair, why not one week w james, and one week w chard for two months, siguro naman enuf time for her to decide. Annulment can follow anytime if she choses james.

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  6. Alpha
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 21:50:48

    I think Maya will choose Richard and will give their marriage or relationship a chance. It may not be right away, but she will. Thanks so much Ms.Con. God bless.

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  7. Crunch
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 21:49:53

    Ouch! Umiyak ako ng sobra dito! Please ms. Con! make Maya realize that Richard is the one… Ahh.. pati ako kinakabahan dito eh!

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  8. SweetLemon
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 21:13:20

    It’s a toss between James and Richard at this point… so I’m terribly confused!! If I were to decide for Maya, I’d wait for awhile, dahil it’ll be a costly mistake kapag nagkamali siya… both men are too precious to hurt…😦

    For someone who has loved Maya for too long, parang napaka patient and complacent naman ni Richard…parang too passive for his character, unless may tinatago si Ms. Con na pasabog… I can’t wait to see him explode and transform into an aggressive lover who’s set to snatch his woman from James… Hay Maya, ikaw na! haba ng hair mo, Day!!🙂

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    • Esther
      Sep 18, 2013 @ 23:39:12

      agree ako dyan. Dapat maging aggressive din si Richard na ipaglalaban nya talaga para makuha nya ang affection ni Maya. OMGee grabe yun pag nagkataon.😉

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  9. Arya
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 20:23:48

    Ms. Con, Im ok na hindi pa magka reconcile si Maya and Richard, but please, can you make Maya realize na it’s been Richard all along? Diko carry ang idea na mahal nya rin si James eh. Sobrang awang awa na ako kay Richard when I think na hindi pala sya nag-iisa sa puso ni Maya.

    Maya can still make things hard for him pero sana she realizes na na si Richard lang pala ang mahal nya.

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  10. nanette
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 19:12:07

    ay con masakit na ito ha, #team R# na talaga ako….
    as i always say, it is only the heart that sees rightly……
    thankie con for the early update…
    will wait for M’s final decision tomorrow…;)

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  11. Arwen
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 19:05:17

    Panindigan ko muna ang James-Maya at this stage. Kung si Richard at si Maya man ang magkatuluyan, gusto ko magsimula sila na Malinis (Meaning: anulled, kahit alam kong magastos Na proseso), No strings attached at walang nagdikta na magsama sila. Magsasama sila dahil mahal nila ang isat-isa, yon lang.

    I want a clean, swift break from Richard And make them live apart. There are already so many emotional factors that could sway the favor to Richard and in my view, is already clouding the judgement of Maya. I am hoping that Maya could see The changes in him that would signify that he is indeed a changed man As the series continues.

    As of now, a Richard-Maya is still a big NO!

    And of course, it all depends on Mother!! Malay ko ba kung san niya tayo gustong dalhin sa kuwento niya. Mukhang heaven and hell and bagsak natin . Wahahahaha🙂🙂🙂

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  12. Rosemeg
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 18:34:22

    Mybe she will chose Jameswagnaman sana

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  13. Jenny
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 18:30:06

    Naiyak ako sa sa pinagdaanan ni Richard. I hope Maya will choose Richard.

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  14. abby
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 18:09:37

    I would like to believe in this chapter, Maya is now having a change of heart. She will nott let go Richard, her one true love. This time Maya should listen to what her heart says and not what her mind tells her. She only need to trust her heart no matter how illogical or irrational it may seem. It is usually the right thing and as a result, she and Richard can live happily everafter.

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  15. aries
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 18:04:58

    Grabeee! I cried when I read the story of Richard. He had a tough life growing up tapos may forced marriage pa…hay…..

    Hope Maya will choose Richard over James.

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  16. catez
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 17:39:48

    oh no no no no no!!!!!! ano kaya ang sasabihin ni maya kay james at ano ang sinabi niya kina nay teresita at mamang…..hala nakakakaba naman ito mama minion suspense ba ito? sana di ako atakihin sa puso kung ano man ang mangyari?hinga hinga muna…….next na siguro ang pasabog mo mama minion…..thanks sa maagang update.

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  17. rbb
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 17:37:24

    salamat sa update, sumakit dibdib ko,lalo akong naawa kay richard, i hope lang na mataohan si maya sa nalaman nya from richard’s dad. if ever na pliin nya si richard sana bigyan nya agad nang closure ang relationship nila ni james para fair din kay james. i hope matipad lahat ni richard ang mga pangarap nya para sa pamilya nya.

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  18. Bong
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 17:32:18

    Ang aga ng update and so heartbreaking to read about Richard’s journey … Do we expect another update within the day? Thanx😉

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  19. Mizwa
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 17:32:11

    Super bitin lang?😦

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  20. bravelady16
    Sep 18, 2013 @ 17:23:18

    Oh my sad😦 pipiliin nb ni maya c james???😦

    Reply

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